Thank you everyone , I have had an emotional few days but having spoken to another doctor he has really helped me put things in to perspective. I am slowly coming to terms with having the total mastectomy and have to just be patient with the whole process of this journey, its such a life changing event and that I have learnt that I just will have to take things one day at a time. So blessed to have such a big support network on here its been great to read other peoples journeys and the inspiration that it will give me to move forward.