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Desley
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15 years ago

Newly Diagnosed Pagets Disease

Hi My name is Desley and I was diagnosed last month with Pagets Disease of the Nipple on Tuesday 17 May 2011.  I had surgery on Thursday 19 May 2011.  I have healed well but my emotional rollcoaster is in full swing and I really, really want to get off!!!!!  The problem that I'm having is that I haven't been able to talk to anyone that has what I have which is Pagets Disease of the Nipple but only this.  Apparently I am in the 3% that only has Pagets and no underlying breast cancer (I tell you that I DON'T feel lucky about this - I know I should but I don't).. 

I had my right nipple and a margin removed. They found some cells in one of my milk ducts so hence why I'm having radiation and next week I am meeting with a radiology oncologist regarding radiation treatment. 

The Cancer counselling service has contacted me and advised that they have no-one for me to talk with as they don't have anyone on their database that has what I have (which made me feel more alone) they said they would see if they could get someone to call me that has had something similar but to date I have not had a call from anyone.  As such I have been ignoring it as I can't talk to anyone. 

I have a good friend that is a counsellor and I spoke with her today.  I didn't want to speak with her as I wanted her to be my friend, not my counsellor, but she was great and said that she was happy to help me and will try and get me in touch with a counsellor to help.  I'm so glad I spoke with her as I think I was going to lose my mind and I think my biggest problem is the fact that I don't feel that what I have is as serious as  I'm not having chemo or had a mastecomy.  I know this probably sounds silly but it's the way I feel. 

After speaking with her I have realised that YES I have breast cancer and I need to face it. 

My  breast care nurses have been terrible and have not been able to give me any information which I found really, really frustrating - not sure why as I thought it was their job?.  I had a lot of questions and unfortunately they couldn't help which was really disappointing.

So here I am asking if anyone can help me in my journey about what to expect regarding radiation as I know nothing and I was diagnosed and had surgery only 1 month ago so everything is so new. 

Thanks for reading and letting me vent.  Regards Desley.

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