Newly diagnosed and scared

Thank you for the words of reassurance. Yes I am luckily HER2 neg. I tried to phone my rad onc today with another list of questions but hopefully will hear back tomorrow. 

I try to remain positive but I think as I haven't seen a specialist in 2 weeks and I'm waiting for my rad to start I am starting to worry and get irrational. I just look at my daughter and feel so scared about what I may miss in her life. Which is not they way to think I know but it happens. I am seeing a psychologist next week too so hopefully I can get some coping techniques. 

I will be looking at having tamoxifen. The dr did say we could reassess things after a couple of years if I still want to have a child but I'm thinking maybe i won't be taking that risk. But I do feel a bit sad as we were hoping to be having a second next year some time. I know I should (and I am) so grateful for what I've got but I still feel a bit cheated. She talks about having a baby sister and it breaks my heart.

Anne MP - do you have to have a mastectomy because of the family history? I just wonder if that is what I should be doing. They (surgeon and rad onc) don't seem to think so but now I can't remember why. As I said i will chase up these questions with my dr. 

Emotionally I've been pretty good apart from the initial waiting for results (knowing my lump was highly suspicious) and just the few days post diagnosis. But since seeing the surgeon I felt like things happened quickly and that was a good thing. But perhaps thing are hitting me a bit now. Anyway I will continue to use this site as a moral boost!