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Caron
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15 years ago

Nervous times...

Just posting an update,I saw my GP on Wednesday the 5th Jan, the bone scan and heart scan, were positive good results, which was a great relief, i tell you.

 I met with my oncologyst on Thursday 6th Jan, I now have my treatment organised.

Chemo is 3 "FEC", then 3 Taxotore - one day every 3 weeks for a total of 6 treatments.

Radiotherapy after chemo is completed

Tamoxifin of 5 years(but maybe cross over to other tablets " Aramatase inhibitors" if i become post menopausal.

I know this treatment has to be, i have it in my head that its a job that has to be done, but i tell you, im so nervous, scared....i find it difficult to find the words to express how i feel. What i do know is that this treatment is for the best, iknow that i want to live, and kick this cancers' butt!!! ...that is my somewhat positive side of me...but im scared

On another note - I have been busy in purchasing scarves, caps and headwrap, also Friday i found a lovely wig, which i purchased...loosing a breast is one thing(and im coping with that slowly), but picturing myself going down the street or shopping or going to a cafe, with no hair just a scarf or hat...it just didnt sit right in my mind...so after thinking about it...i decided to take control over the 'hair thing'. Me at home i can let loose and get around with a cap/hat...but doing the social side of things ima getting wiggy with it (that is me and a touch of humour for the first time ..since i dont know when)

Hugs to you all, hope that your day is a pleasant one, talk soon, take care and be safe

Caron xx

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    Leonie_Moore
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    15 years ago

    You are just a little way ahead of me.  I see my medical oncologist on 25th Jan and the radiation oncologist on 20 and 2st January.  I have been diagnosed with secondaries in my lymph nodes.  I was diagnosed on 20-12-10 after surgery on 14-12.  Yes it is very scary.  My intuition told me that this was not BC again so I had it in my mind that all was well.  So at diagnosis I pretty well wanted to crack.  I didn't because my husband finds it very hard to deal with.  What made it worse was that my surgeon was very upset - I have been seeing him for 3years post first surgery (previous surgeon retired) and we have formed a good bond.  Then to make it worse I rang the pathologist to clarify some things and she said "I'm so sorry!!!!"  Holly hell was I ready for the scrap heap?  Anyway this made me hasten the body scan and bone scan as I wanted some good news to tide me over Xmas.  The body scan came back good before Xmas and the bone scan came back the same after Xmas.  What a relief for all my family and husband.  I am not so sure to celebrate too soon though as I have been quite ill with some flu every since.  I will stay positive but deep down inside there is pure ?????.  I had radiation therapy last time and have been on Tamoxifen  for 4 years.  I am now on Arimidex even though I still haven't gone through menopause - who knows could have but not by tests.  As I didn't have chemo last time this is unknown territory and I will be petrified having the first shot as I hate being sick.  I have had too much sickness in my life already.  Anyway we do have to go with it .....and in doing so enjoy what we have and look forward to the end of treatment.XLeonie