My story

Oh YLY, reading your post takes me back to March this year when I was diagnosed at 37. I'm not going to say it gets easier, because some days it feels harder, but I do feel that I am getting stronger that each day passes, more able to move forward and even some days I go about my business and some little thing will happen and then in my head, or even out loud, I say "oh crap, that's right I have cancer!", and I am just coming to the end of my chemo, radiation still to go.

One thing I did was told my support network that I need to maintain my sense of humour and I have to say I have gained a very warped view of this journey and am often laughing at things I thought I would never have to do like use night time sanitary pads as fluid collectors on my boobs post surgery, and my husband thought that solution up, gotta love them!

I sought out a psychologist that I feel comfortable with, went through 2 before I found the one for me and I call her my baggage carousel! I go in drop my baggage off (cry, laugh, get angry, sometimes fall asleep), and walk out lighter. I didn't have this support for the first 6 weeks post diagnosis and I got to breaking point and realised I needed someone not in my circle of family and friends to help me. Highly recommend and you can get a mental health assessment and plan from your gp which helps with the cost. 

This is a great place to vent and ask questions. Massive hugs to you, know that you are not alone, you are strong but you don't always have to be so reach out and ask for help when you need it.

xx