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Kaz37
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15 years ago

My Journey

Well lets start a few years ago when I was 15yrs old back in my high school PE class, our teacher is telling us about checking ourselves for breast lumps, we all went home that night to check and I found my first lump, one of many to follow. From then on my life was like 'Groundhog Day' many lumps and many Dr's ALL saying not to worry as I was too young to get breast cancer until about 5 years ago when even my Dr at the time thought that one of my lumps looked suspicious but after many tests and endless nights of no sleep the results came back showing - NO cancer, yay!

September last year was a very scary time for me as my marriage fell apart and came to a violent end, the stress that followed caused me to lose a lot of wieght very rapidly I dropped around 40 kilos in 5 months which at the time I thought great dont need to diet anymore. My anxiety attakcs became a weekly occurance which caused me to take time off work so the stress became worse with no income to helppay the bills, but this allowed me the time to see my new Dr about getting more tests on the many lumps in both my breasts. I had an ultrasound, a momogram and a fine needle biopsy. The fine needle biopsy came back showing signs of cancer so she sent me to a breast specialist who ordered 2 core biopsies, the following week on Thursday 19 May the results came back which confirmed that I had breast cancer - OMG what a bombshell I couldn't even talk all I could do was cry and cry and cry, lucky I had Karl with me and we had already discussed all the questions that we wanted answers for and he asked these questions, 'What was the Dr going to do about it and When?' The Dr had already decided the best way to attack this was to remove both my breasts because the size of the lump was 3.5cm by 2cm and where it was sitting right above my right nipple. The 'When' was 4 days from then WOW. He wanted to move fast, so the following Monday I had to go to a clinic to have some radioactive injections in my right breast which would help the surgoen find my 1st lumph node, then off to the hospital for my surgery.

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  • I hit another milestone with chemo yesterday my gorgous long hair is starting to fall out, I have been growing my hair for a very long time and spent a lot of money on looking after it. It was a very sad moment for me and my wonderful man Karl held me while I cried and soothed me saying that he loves me with or without my hair (he is so wonderful). So soon I will be posting some pics on my blog of before and after shots, Im getting the length put into a nice braide and put into a box picture frame with a before and after picture, this is going to help me with the hair loss to remind me that it will grow back. I have to have more blood tests this week as I have my next chemo session next tuesday.

    Ok now for something different I am going to tell you some of the things in my life that I am greatful for and that are what are holding my spirits high these days and in return I would like those of you who have someone or something in your lives that you are greatful for and/or that give you your inspiration to keep fighting or even if its a thought that just puts a smile on your face when you wake up in the morning.

    Here's my inpiration and the things in my life that I am extremely grateful for;

    I am most grateful for my wonderful sons, Brodie 19, Dylan 18, Cullam 16 and Aj 14. They are my angles and my happiness, they are why I get up in the morning. Even though I had Brodie when I was only 16, I do not regret being so young as I have been able to grow up with my boys. They are my life without them I would be lost. I love you boys more than anything you put the twinkle in my eye XXXX

    My parents Val and Chris are amazing parents have supported me and been there through all the ups and downs in my life since having my kids, they have let me make my own decisions but when things went bad they were there to pick up the peices EVERYTIME. I love you both very very much XXXX

    I am also very very grateful for the wonderful man in my life Karl, we only met the week before christmas last year and we have both been very badly hurt in relationships and were very cautious when we started seeing each other but as time has moved forward so has our relationship into something truly amazing. I was worried about telling you about the cancer, I was very worried that it might destroy what we have but you have been amazingcoming to all my appointments asking questions, looking after my boys when I was in hospital and spending nearly every waking moment with me. I never thought that I would be able to love someone ever again but you have shown me the right way to love a person and you have melted my heart and I love your so very very deeply. You really are an amazing kind heart loving man and to have you in my life is a blessing. YRMW (You Rock My World, Karls says that to me all the time) XXXX

    My boys girlfriends Tori (Brodie) who is about to give me my first grandchild in August you are beautiful, Tamara (Dylan) you help me out so much at home with the cleaning etc thank you sweetheart, Simone (Cullam) calling me all the time to see how I'm feeling and gives me lots of hugs, I love you all very much and I am proud to call you my girls XXXX

    My boys girlfriends Tori (Brodie) who is about to give me my first grandchild in August you are beautiful, Tamara (Dylan) you help me out so much at home with the cleaning etc thank you sweetheart, Simone (Cullam) calling me all the time to see how I'm feeling and gives me lots of hugs, I love you all very much and I am proud to call you my girls XXXX

    I cannot forget my wonderful friends (too many to name lol) you are all a very large part of my life and my support network. I love reading all you messages you send they make me smile. I will mention a couple of my bf's, Renee, Scottie, Alana and Amie always stopping in for a chat or cooking meals for us love you all you truly are bf's, Tracy the older sis I never had drives from Oakey to Gold Coast to see me cant wait to see you again love you babe, Jodi lol love all the purpl things you sent over, I wear my sunnies everyday, miss you and love you heaps chicky and Chell well chicky you brought tears to my eyes when you sent me that message saying I was your 'hero' WOW I didnt think that what I am going through would mean that much to another person love you heaps all you true friends are VERY hard to find these days and I feel honered to call you all my friend. XXXX

    I am also greatful for all my doctors without all of you being behind me all the way through this I hate to think where I would be, you are all amazing at what you do, we need more doctors like you, then our health system would be a hundred time better.

    Things that make me smile:

    Hugs and kisses from my boys :)

    Getting a huge cuddle from Karl :)

    Hugs from mum and dad :)

    Sitting in the warm early morning sun ready my book :)

    Chocolate biscuits at 2am :)

    Playing with Renee's puppy rolo :)

    Hand feeding a baby maggie that comes in my yard :)

    Just now a tiny little bird eating from the bird feeder I set up next to the patio :)

    Listening to the rain at night when I cant sleep :)

    Going fishing with Karl and the boys and standing in the small waves as they tickle my toes :)

    Ok so if you have ANYTHING that inspires you or that you are greatful for or just something that make you smile post it up and let see if we can give others some inspiration to help them smile when times are tough and they dont think they can keep fighting as we are ALL worth fighting for and just remember it might fell like hell on earth right now, I know that feeling as I have days like that but when all this is over just think that life can only get better as you have fought the hardest battle that you will ever have to fight and YOU WON :)

    Love, thoughts and prayers to all XXXX

  • I hit another milestone with chemo yesterday my gorgous long hair is starting to fall out, I have been growing my hair for a very long time and spent a lot of money on looking after it. It was a very sad moment for me and my wonderful man Karl held me while I cried and soothed me saying that he loves me with or without my hair (he is so wonderful). So soon I will be posting some pics on my blog of before and after shots, Im getting the length put into a nice braide and put into a box picture frame with a before and after picture, this is going to help me with the hair loss to remind me that it will grow back. I have to have more blood tests this week as I have my next chemo session next tuesday.

    Ok now for something different I am going to tell you some of the things in my life that I am greatful for and that are what are holding my spirits high these days and in return I would like those of you who have someone or something in your lives that you are greatful for and/or that give you your inspiration to keep fighting or even if its a thought that just puts a smile on your face when you wake up in the morning.

    Here's my inpiration and the things in my life that I am extremely grateful for;

    I am most grateful for my wonderful sons, Brodie 19, Dylan 18, Cullam 16 and Aj 14. They are my angles and my happiness, they are why I get up in the morning. Even though I had Brodie when I was only 16, I do not regret being so young as I have been able to grow up with my boys. They are my life without them I would be lost. I love you boys more than anything you put the twinkle in my eye XXXX

    My parents Val and Chris are amazing parents have supported me and been there through all the ups and downs in my life since having my kids, they have let me make my own decisions but when things went bad they were there to pick up the peices EVERYTIME. I love you both very very much XXXX

    I am also very very grateful for the wonderful man in my life Karl, we only met the week before christmas last year and we have both been very badly hurt in relationships and were very cautious when we started seeing each other but as time has moved forward so has our relationship into something truly amazing. I was worried about telling you about the cancer, I was very worried that it might destroy what we have but you have been amazingcoming to all my appointments asking questions, looking after my boys when I was in hospital and spending nearly every waking moment with me. I never thought that I would be able to love someone ever again but you have shown me the right way to love a person and you have melted my heart and I love your so very very deeply. You really are an amazing kind heart loving man and to have you in my life is a blessing. YRMW (You Rock My World, Karls says that to me all the time) XXXX

    My boys girlfriends Tori (Brodie) who is about to give me my first grandchild in August you are beautiful, Tamara (Dylan) you help me out so much at home with the cleaning etc thank you sweetheart, Simone (Cullam) calling me all the time to see how I'm feeling and gives me lots of hugs, I love you all very much and I am proud to call you my girls XXXX

    My boys girlfriends Tori (Brodie) who is about to give me my first grandchild in August you are beautiful, Tamara (Dylan) you help me out so much at home with the cleaning etc thank you sweetheart, Simone (Cullam) calling me all the time to see how I'm feeling and gives me lots of hugs, I love you all very much and I am proud to call you my girls XXXX

    I cannot forget my wonderful friends (too many to name lol) you are all a very large part of my life and my support network. I love reading all you messages you send they make me smile. I will mention a couple of my bf's, Renee, Scottie, Alana and Amie always stopping in for a chat or cooking meals for us love you all you truly are bf's, Tracy the older sis I never had drives from Oakey to Gold Coast to see me cant wait to see you again love you babe, Jodi lol love all the purpl things you sent over, I wear my sunnies everyday, miss you and love you heaps chicky and Chell well chicky you brought tears to my eyes when you sent me that message saying I was your 'hero' WOW I didnt think that what I am going through would mean that much to another person love you heaps all you true friends are VERY hard to find these days and I feel honered to call you all my friend. XXXX

    I am also greatful for all my doctors without all of you being behind me all the way through this I hate to think where I would be, you are all amazing at what you do, we need more doctors like you, then our health system would be a hundred time better.

    Things that make me smile:

    Hugs and kisses from my boys :)

    Getting a huge cuddle from Karl :)

    Hugs from mum and dad :)

    Sitting in the warm early morning sun ready my book :)

    Chocolate biscuits at 2am :)

    Playing with Renee's puppy rolo :)

    Hand feeding a baby maggie that comes in my yard :)

    Just now a tiny little bird eating from the bird feeder I set up next to the patio :)

    Listening to the rain at night when I cant sleep :)

    Going fishing with Karl and the boys and standing in the small waves as they tickle my toes :)

    Ok so if you have ANYTHING that inspires you or that you are greatful for or just something that make you smile post it up and let see if we can give others some inspiration to help them smile when times are tough and they dont think they can keep fighting as we are ALL worth fighting for and just remember it might fell like hell on earth right now, I know that feeling as I have days like that but when all this is over just think that life can only get better as you have fought the hardest battle that you will ever have to fight and YOU WON :)

    Love, thoughts and prayers to all XXXX

  • Kaz, the chemo won't necessarily make you really sick....I felt like I had morning sickness or a hangover but I was never actually sick!  Yes, you lose your hair and feel tired but chemo is do-able!

    You have been through a lot so just wait to see what your oncologist recommends.

    Incidentally I had a big bleed after my first mastectomy in 2003 as well.  I had an allergic reaction to the blue dye that they use for tracking the lymphatic drainage whilst I was having my mastectomy.  I ended up in ICU and then when I came to, I had a major bleed into the drains on that side and they ended up rushing me back in to stop the bleeding.  I also had a blood transfusion.  With my second mastectomy last year, I also had another bleed but this time it was only 400mls.  It started on a Friday night and by the time I saw my doctor on the Monday I was in a lot of pain and felt quite sick.  They put me into hospital the next morning to drain it but luckily this time I didn't need a transfusion.  Maybe having a bleed is more common than we think!!

    Take care,

    Louise x

  • Just a small blog this morning as I have another big day today I have an appointment at the hospital at 8.30am to get the results of my ultrasound I had last week as they found a cyst on oe of my overies when they did my CT scan and I have an appointment with my oncologist to find out when my chemo starts. I have mixd feelings with this one as the cancer itself didnt make me sick, I just lost a lot of weight but I know this treatment will make me very sick,but at the same time I cant wait to kick this disease in the butt. I will put up another post tonight if I'm up to it and let you know how things go and when I start my treatment. Talk again soon. Take care all you wonderful ladies who who are bashing at the same brick wall as I am we can do this one brick at a time we are stronger than this ugly disease love to all XXXXX

  • I have remembered having bumps since a young age too... Doctors said the same to me, dont worry your too young... There are so many young people on here as young as 24, you are never too young, & I dont think its right they say that to us... Hope u r travelling well & surgery goes well & the double mastecomy is all u have to deal with... Good luck! & keep in touch.... 

  • I have remembered having bumps since a young age too... Doctors said the same to me, dont worry your too young... There are so many young people on here as young as 24, you are never too young, & I dont think its right they say that to us... Hope u r travelling well & surgery goes well & the double mastecomy is all u have to deal with... Good luck! & keep in touch.... 

  • Wow you've been throught the mill, haven't you?  I always had lumps and bumps from a young age too and was always asking the doctors to check one thing or another but it is still such a shock when they tell you that you have breast cancer!

    Have you had your surgery now?  How are you going?  Have they given you an idea of your treatment plan yet?

    Take care and stay in touch

    Louise