I hit another milestone with chemo yesterday my gorgous long hair is starting to fall out, I have been growing my hair for a very long time and spent a lot of money on looking after it. It was a very sad moment for me and my wonderful man Karl held me while I cried and soothed me saying that he loves me with or without my hair (he is so wonderful). So soon I will be posting some pics on my blog of before and after shots, Im getting the length put into a nice braide and put into a box picture frame with a before and after picture, this is going to help me with the hair loss to remind me that it will grow back. I have to have more blood tests this week as I have my next chemo session next tuesday.
Ok now for something different I am going to tell you some of the things in my life that I am greatful for and that are what are holding my spirits high these days and in return I would like those of you who have someone or something in your lives that you are greatful for and/or that give you your inspiration to keep fighting or even if its a thought that just puts a smile on your face when you wake up in the morning.
Here's my inpiration and the things in my life that I am extremely grateful for;
I am most grateful for my wonderful sons, Brodie 19, Dylan 18, Cullam 16 and Aj 14. They are my angles and my happiness, they are why I get up in the morning. Even though I had Brodie when I was only 16, I do not regret being so young as I have been able to grow up with my boys. They are my life without them I would be lost. I love you boys more than anything you put the twinkle in my eye XXXX
My parents Val and Chris are amazing parents have supported me and been there through all the ups and downs in my life since having my kids, they have let me make my own decisions but when things went bad they were there to pick up the peices EVERYTIME. I love you both very very much XXXX
I am also very very grateful for the wonderful man in my life Karl, we only met the week before christmas last year and we have both been very badly hurt in relationships and were very cautious when we started seeing each other but as time has moved forward so has our relationship into something truly amazing. I was worried about telling you about the cancer, I was very worried that it might destroy what we have but you have been amazingcoming to all my appointments asking questions, looking after my boys when I was in hospital and spending nearly every waking moment with me. I never thought that I would be able to love someone ever again but you have shown me the right way to love a person and you have melted my heart and I love your so very very deeply. You really are an amazing kind heart loving man and to have you in my life is a blessing. YRMW (You Rock My World, Karls says that to me all the time) XXXX
My boys girlfriends Tori (Brodie) who is about to give me my first grandchild in August you are beautiful, Tamara (Dylan) you help me out so much at home with the cleaning etc thank you sweetheart, Simone (Cullam) calling me all the time to see how I'm feeling and gives me lots of hugs, I love you all very much and I am proud to call you my girls XXXX
My boys girlfriends Tori (Brodie) who is about to give me my first grandchild in August you are beautiful, Tamara (Dylan) you help me out so much at home with the cleaning etc thank you sweetheart, Simone (Cullam) calling me all the time to see how I'm feeling and gives me lots of hugs, I love you all very much and I am proud to call you my girls XXXX
I cannot forget my wonderful friends (too many to name lol) you are all a very large part of my life and my support network. I love reading all you messages you send they make me smile. I will mention a couple of my bf's, Renee, Scottie, Alana and Amie always stopping in for a chat or cooking meals for us love you all you truly are bf's, Tracy the older sis I never had drives from Oakey to Gold Coast to see me cant wait to see you again love you babe, Jodi lol love all the purpl things you sent over, I wear my sunnies everyday, miss you and love you heaps chicky and Chell well chicky you brought tears to my eyes when you sent me that message saying I was your 'hero' WOW I didnt think that what I am going through would mean that much to another person love you heaps all you true friends are VERY hard to find these days and I feel honered to call you all my friend. XXXX
I am also greatful for all my doctors without all of you being behind me all the way through this I hate to think where I would be, you are all amazing at what you do, we need more doctors like you, then our health system would be a hundred time better.
Things that make me smile:
Hugs and kisses from my boys :)
Getting a huge cuddle from Karl :)
Hugs from mum and dad :)
Sitting in the warm early morning sun ready my book :)
Chocolate biscuits at 2am :)
Playing with Renee's puppy rolo :)
Hand feeding a baby maggie that comes in my yard :)
Just now a tiny little bird eating from the bird feeder I set up next to the patio :)
Listening to the rain at night when I cant sleep :)
Going fishing with Karl and the boys and standing in the small waves as they tickle my toes :)
Ok so if you have ANYTHING that inspires you or that you are greatful for or just something that make you smile post it up and let see if we can give others some inspiration to help them smile when times are tough and they dont think they can keep fighting as we are ALL worth fighting for and just remember it might fell like hell on earth right now, I know that feeling as I have days like that but when all this is over just think that life can only get better as you have fought the hardest battle that you will ever have to fight and YOU WON :)
Love, thoughts and prayers to all XXXX