My chemo brain

Just trying to remember all your names by the time I scrolled down to start this comment was hard. Had to scroll up and down a few times before I got all your names down and there's only four of you! I find I lose the thread of conversation half way through and I just lose words. They may be the simplest words like 'what' but I can't remember them. I too prided myself on being able to multi-taste extremely well and efficiently in my job as PA to the Head of School at Latrobe Uni. I had to know everything that was going on in the school and could put my finger on any info that the academics wanted really quickly. I worked long hours sometimes continuing my job well into the night via emails at home. My supervisor and I would be 'talking' to each other at past midnight sometimes. I decided to have the year off and I'm so glad I did because just typing in these posts takes a lot of concentration and thank goodness for auto-spell checks. I can't remember how to spell 'the' sometimes. Somehow I can see a bit of a pattern here. We all have busy working life's let alone running our households and I had a lot of stress in my life with a restructure at work and having to apply for my job again last year not knowing whether I'd be successful or not. (There were three ladies vying for two positions with three schools being merged into two and fortunately I regained my position). The university has been in some turmoil in all the six years I've been there with admin reductions and I had come from an extremely stressful admin position in real estate before that also working very long hours. I am convinced that stress played a big part in my getting BC. I have no close family history and don't have the BRCA gene mutation. I can only think that I haven't been kind to myself in past years and worked far too had in very stressful jobs. Apart from taking this year off, I will be seriously reassessing the way I approach my work. I will not be putting in the 120% I have in the past, always putting in extra. I will no longer work after hours (I never got paid anyway) and will do what I can when I am at work. I will have to train myself to not stress about things that aren't important. This post has taken about two hours to type. I know you all can relate to that. Happy minds ladies Love Janey xxx