Hi Massiel, I'm glad the blog is helping you to vent all those thoughts and feelings that crowd our minds and to help you process what's happening. Although I have finished treatment, other than the hormone tablets, I find being able to chat here, and tell my story has been a great way to finally acknowledge and work through the emotions that I pushed aside during treatment; really should have done it much earlier!
I get lymphodema in my arm, which flared up during radiation. I'm lucky that it's relatively mild and I can generally keep it under control through self massage of my arm and chest (a lymphodema physio in my area showed me how to do this) and the use of a compression arm sleeve when things start getting worse (which I think will happen today) I have to be careful about how much I'm trying to do as this invariably causes things to flare up especially if it's hot. I also had to my rings on that hand cut off so as to relieve the build up of fluid. Not sure where you are, but there are apparently a lot more physios who have been trained in helping people with various forms of lymphodema: you could try searching on the Aust physiotherapy association's website for someone near you. Personally I found having a good physio really invaluable to helping with a number of the side effects of breast cancer and to rebuilding my strength.
Best of luck with it all, and I hope you manage a proper getaway sometime soon. Jane xx
