It certainly is a roller coaster. Just so you know I believe the bone scan and Ct scan is standard diagnostic done at the beginning and wouldn't be because you have a lymph node involved. I'm havibg chemo even without node involvement, so each case is carefully considered and best options put forward. Although dreaded...chemo is your friend...as it will treat micro cancers that cannot be seen. Best of luck with your upcomibg treatments. I agree with others comments...the wait is the worse. Once treatment starts...whatever order it is, you feel more in control. I read a lot, but at some stage it's good to pull back a bit as it just can add to the stress. Knowledge though helps you when they talk about options. I ended focussing on other things...like checking out chemo hats and wigs. I bought some inexpensive scarves. I organised a dental check and clean. It gave me the feeling I was preparing myself as best I could. Take care. Kath