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Alsopt
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10 years ago

Lol are we over it

I know we are all suppose to say it's all good but it's not good some things are like being able to swim well lol dog paddle the past few days I ve ppushed what I don't get is I took up my first ciggerette last week how stupid is that feeling incredibly stressed  how do we all cope? Makes no sense cancer and then I do that feeling lonely my god give me strength how stupid I hate chemo prior I lived prior no more I just want to wake up cripeys 

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  • As Tracy says,it's ok to have a meltdown!!!! Use this network of ladies to lean on.We remain as online friends,long after treatment has finished,and the connections made here can only be understood  by someone who has had BC,I feel.I hope today is better for you,as often all it takes is to wake up to a 'new' day.Remember to stay in touch:):): Cheers Robyn xox

  • Thank you Tracey yes I feel better today it seems to build up lol I'm sucking it up xxx loads of love 

     

  • Hi Alsopt,

    who says we gotta say it's all good? Truth is bc sucks, chemo sucks and I reckon we've earned the right to be honest about it. Day after day we fight this awful battle. It's lonely when those around us don't understand what we are dealing with. I've stopped turning to family & friends for support. They just don't get it and I'm SO sick of their platitudes. But that doesn't mean we are alone...... thank God we can come online here and know someone else understands our struggle, that we share our journey with sisters who get that we are stressed and tired and just want our life back. 

    It's okay to have a melt down, who cares if you had a cigarette or if just for today you just don't wanna push! Hang in there Sis, I'm praying for you.....that tonight you will sleep peacefully without pain, that tomorrow you will find renewed strength and that God will send you someone to encourage your heart and soul. 

    May God bless you dear Sister

    Tracey xXx