Just over it all - need to sook before going to 1st Chemo alone

Hi Jelena

havent jumped on the forum for a while and I was thinking of you and I've just read your blog, unfortunately those closest to us can sometimes react not the way we want, it happens but good that you had your sook you have to let it out! I understand you would have many thoughts going round and round your head especially with your allergies but you will be looked after very well, and like yourself I've kept busy with catching up with girlfriends for lunches but I feel so on the outside looking in, trying to stay positive and everyone keeps telling me that as well, it's not easy, starting chemo Monday week and I'm scared, I looked at the calendar and realised I'll have a couple months of uncertainty, it's the fear of the Unknown, how shit will I feel? Will I get from one stage to the next? How bad are the side effects going to be?  I take comfort that I just take each day as it comes, one step ahead of the other, will get to the finish line. Take care Sophie