It's not a waiting game!

Hi everyone, wishing you all a good New Year for 2015.

It's been ages since I last posted, let alone supported new people and given encouragement to those i have met.

I guess it's like taking a holiday which in fact i did. October/November last year I spent 3 and a half weeks in NZ and travelled to firstly the South Is where some of my nephews live then headed North eventually ending up in Te Kao which is an hour from Cape Reinga the top of the North Island.

I can tick that off my imaginery bucket list and to be quite honest I think having the written Bucket List in my face will help me achieve those things I have outstanding on my list.Must Do. The trip was absolutely wonderful especially the part where you meet up with your family and friends. The most exasperating challenge was the 5 hour difference and the partaking of my meds. Way out of whack. I tried to get myself into some sort of routine and i just couldnt do it. I was missing days of meds all over the place.

Though I enjoy being home it did put stress on my body. I couldnt eat properly and came back 6 kilos lighter. Hey I loved losing but it was so quick it was frightening too. Now that i'm home I've put on some weight and that is good it also means that I cant eat those lollies i was consuming whilst back in NZ.

I just didnt want to eat anything else. I went to the dentist when i got back though. So NZ beautiful and raw and filled with love and spirtiual enlightenment is my home away from home.

I will miss always but here in Perth is a place I have grown to love. Completely different from NZ and NSW (where I actually spent most of my life) but not so much different in reference to meeting some really wonderful people.

And each day, and each day is different, I awake mostly with gratitude for a beautiful summers day and cool breezes and wonder what the day will bring and how I am going to fill it. I check the weather on TV, I love TV. I take the dogs for a walk with my hubby sometimes. I come home feeling content then eat breakfast.

I know I have to take my meds so thats a given but I must tell you that when the evening rolls in I forget. Hmm I wonder if it's intentional. Sometimes it is but i know I need to take them because the pain is always there to remind me and my husband tells me constantly that it is important to keep me alive.

Each day when Im outside the trees look softer, and the leaves greener. The sky is either bluer or the clouds are puffier its amazing hey. So this year is a year of fulfillment. I've joined the 'Friends' group at RPH as a volunteer.

I'm helping at a Homeless Shelter in Northbridge on a sunday avo. Sunday morning is for worship at Riverview Church Burswood where I regularly attend for a spiritual top up. And today well just backed 2 Banana loaves which honestly would have ended in a disaster a few times. I forgot to put this in and that in it's a wonder I got it right.Would have been a complete waste of ingredience otherwise.

So my title 'It's not a waiting game' reminds me to live. I'm not in some sort of comatose state, I can walk, feed myself, breath laugh and cry and my brain is still ticking over. I know I must keep some time for reflection and peace. To still myself and look at what I did and appreciate those around me too.

I know I'm going to have some sad moments, its natural, but I can't wallow too long in them either. So 'it's not a waiting game'.

I am doing and I'm liking the person I am and becoming. Love to all.