It's hit me!

We all cope differently and things hit us at different times but I feel we all have that concern will it come back.

I recently had unbearable hip pain and was concerned it was secondaries, it was not it was my medication.

I think our doctors understand this, be kind to yourself its ok to be worried.

Take care, sending you hugs

Donna

Hi Andir

I am so sorry to hear that you are struggling emotionally.  Unfortunately it happens. We think we are as strong as an ox and then it just hits us.  It is very much okay to be crying.  Crying is very healing and is actually quite healthy for us.......as long as it stops.  

I really hope that the total sadness has passed and that you are coping with your radiotherapy.  I also hope the rads staff are looking after you especially if they are seeing you are a bit fragile emotionally at the moment.  It is okay to cry, they would have seen it before I can assure you.

If your crying is an ongoing thing then speak with someone and ask for help. You are better off to get yourself sorted and feeling a bit better than leave it till it impacts further on your health huny.

You have been through a lot already.  We all understand where you are coming from.

Thinking of you and hoping you are feeling okay. 

Lots of love always, Mich xoxoxoox

You can relate it to an accident I guess this business of feeling well and suddenly being told, yes but you have Cancer!   Then you have to absorb information you havent known anything about before, and you enter the "Cyclone" .  Once the treatment is over, and the storm has passed, I too felt like I finally then understood everything Id been through, and sent myself off to a little bit of counselling.  

It passes, this delayed response, we do have incredible ability to return to our lives (most of us), and we slowly transform back to our former selves, (well speaking for myself).

Take care, one step at a time, it will all be ok, (majority of the time)

X Bel

I think the breast cancer journey causes your emotions to be all over the shop and you can't always predict them.One minute I would be so brave and the next ,a blubbering mess over the smallest thing.Perhaps we brace ourselves for the hard treatment and then when it's over,we allow ourselves to grieve and process it all.Lets face it,it's a long hard slog and you wouldn't be human if you didn't break down sometimes.But if you are crying all the time then it wouldn't hurt to see a psychologist. I've had breast cancer twice and each time it took me about 2 years to feel a little more confident in my health.I still worry if I get an unexplained pain or if I'm due for my annual mammogram.I think it's normal to feel like this and I know the worry will pass when the pain goes or the mammo is clear.It's good to have strategies to help with these feelings.Some ladies find exercise/walking helps.I like sitting in my spa and meditating. I also go to art therapy each week and  I run a breast cancer support group once a month which is beneficial. Blog back here for support because I think it helps to vent your fears.The cancer worry will fade in time but I doubt that it ever goes away completely.Big hug, Tonya xx

 hi there, i would be gentle with yourself and dont worry about feeling teary or a bit scared--it happens.  that first appt to do the measurements is a bit confronting

and then i had a wait and when i finally walked into my first treatment i got a touch teary==basement, the word cancer on the door...its confronting and emotive!!   i found the cheerfulness and kindness of radiation staff lovely and knowing it didnt hurt helped too

but i think they call it a roller coaster for good reasons and sometimes it feels coping well and doing well..and then you get teary or fearful...still doing well..part of process....