I want this thing out of me now!
Hi everyone,
I am new to this but after reading a lot of the posts on here i think i am finally in the right place.
Just finished writing my story on the profile page. Oh what a story,(joking) I need to go and read up on everyone else, so i can begin to understand and believe that im not alone as i really feel at the moment.
A quick run down of myself. Diagnosed on 15th July with grade 2 invasive ductal carcinoma. Surgeons appointment 11th August. Some suspicious nodes so they are to check them and take action as required.
My mental state has plummeted big time. For days i have just found myself wandering around dazed , bursting into tears waiting for this thing to be removed out of my body, and the waiting is so painfully long.
I keep fighting with my mind when i think i have found more lumps in my body and the thought of being consumed with Cancer. When do these feelings go away.
I cant help but think Why me? what have i done to deserve this.? I just want to be happy in my life, I don't wont to die like this.
I know all this sounds very selfish and i know i am not the only one going through this and you ladies have probably already gone through everything i am feeling now.
The internet has became my all night friend of knowledge as sleep is out of the question.
I am struggling to wait until 11th August to see the surgeon, ( Professor Christobel Saunders( WA top breast surgeon)
I am really scared and mixed up emotionally and could really do with talking with others that have this dreaded disease.
Thanks everyone for the dribble session, it does help
