I want this thing out of me now!

I Feel like I'm 80 but  no i am only 49. No where near Menopause. My lump is 2 cm. but has come out of the milk duct quite significantly if that means anything. . 

I sometimes think the same about loosing my boobs, I dont think i would cope losing either of them. Then next moment I'm thinking they both should just come off now so i can get nice new perky ones.I could not go with out having new ones straight away though. But then i freak out again and the story goes on.

Funny you say Tonya about your boob never feeling  the same,  well neither do mine and i haven't had anything done except the core biopsy thing.  I can still feel where they did it without even touching my boob, and i can imagine this growth eating out in side my boob . What am i going to be like after they take the lump. It really makes me feel sick. I get a horrible heavy  feeling in my chest when i think about the choices i have to make.

I am starting to believe that cancers always come back like it has with you and so many of the women on this site.  I don't know  what to do or think. Truthfully, how childish this sounds  i would like to just run away and keep running. I really don't think i am going to be able to make this decision. I would prefer them to just do what ever they have to and not tell me.

Regardless i think there goes any chance of a love life again. but hey at least i will still be alive i suppose.

Thanks Tonya for listening

Ps Hey Tonya i don't do naked anymore either and i still got both mine  at the moment.

cheers