I hit the wall

Sometimes a simple rant is just the best. I found in the first 2 weeks of diagnosis with MRI biopsies etc, along with tears and fears, every evening sitting on the lounge with husband and sons (19 & 22) I would tell them where I was up to with drs etc. as my girlfriend would come with on my all my initial medical appointments. We would cry hug and 'cry laugh'. I simply told them that while I am normally the one who makes sure things are running as smoothly as possible in the household but this was something new to me and I was feeling as lost as them. Once we knew what my treatment plan was we all felt a little more back on track, sometimes I would cry by myself when I went for a walk, sometimes cry in the shower and other times just simply say ' you know I am having a feel sorry for myself day today' and that would be met by a hug. I don't have the best relationship with my parents and a couple of siblings so I didn't expect miraculous family reconciliations so the level of support I got from them was what I expected and I was and still am OK with that, one brother on the other hand I am very close to and he was wonderful. I agree with the other ladies that being upfront with feelings etc is what I found easier for me and for family and friends. Wishing you a very happy Mother's Day and hope your days get a little better each time. Take care Fiona