I had a moment yesterday :(

I am just 5 months into this fight and now i realise it is a fight, before I treated it like another project or job, now its a daily struggle - and i cry all the time, i cry at the radio in the car,  especially if wind beneath my wings comes on - i mean COME ON....I cry at anything pink (except for when my niece tells me it's her favourite colour), I want to slap the girls in the shops when I walk in and they say ..Hi - how are you today? or its breast cancer awareness month do you want to purchase a ribbon, I feel like saying I am a walking talking ribbon and do you really want to know how I am feeling today. I have not stopped on and off crying since I have been told I am having both boobs off. Now i know all the science and they its the best thing to do, but man, really - emotionally its a curse word i am not going to say here - i am just feeling like a punching bag. So you are 100% ok to cry at the cupcakes, the ribbons and the words - because even though I love the support and the movement, pink just isn't my favourite colour anymore. BIG LOVES... Shelli xxx