Thanks Louie I work as a clinical nurse educator in Emergency so my job can be as clinical as I choose to make it but I think you are right I will just play it by ear and see how we go . Funny that we are both technically in the education field I also used to reach at TAFE up here on a casual basis until I got sick and then I guess my priorities changed and I decided family time was more important than work so had to make a decision but it was actually easy as my work at the hospital allows me to remain clinical as well as teach so best of both worlds. I should also admit I am an emergency nurse to the core and thrive in the challenging adrenaline rich environment...... Sad I know . I must admit though after all my treatment was over I think work saved me emotionally as it gave me something else to think about and do as like you I struggled at the cpletion of treatment as you kind of feel cast adrift even though you really aren't because you go from medical staff keeping a close eye on you to suddenly only seeing someone every few months so it was I remember a scary time. In the last few weeks a friend from work has been diagnosed with terminal inflammatory breast cancer which has caused some old feelings to surface but has also made me realise how incredibly lucky I am to be here at all kind of puts it all into perspective . I would never willingly go through breast cancer again but I am now a much calmer person who appreciates the little things in life. Xx Jen