Having one of 'those' days!

Hi Jacinta,

 I can see from the date of your post that's it been a couple of months since you wrote it although I've only  just read  it. I just wanted to say I can relate to how you've been feeling. I think one of the cruelest things about this disease  is that as well as attacking our health and threatening our lives it attacks our self-esteem and how we feel about ourselves as women. Breasts and hair are two of the key features that can make us feel attractive.  When those features are degraded or lost it's a huge blow to our self-esteem.

 I've been lucky enough to be able to get away with a lumpectomy but I still feel self-conscious about my lop-sided breasts. (I'm kind of dreading summer and more revealing clothes).  And since starting chemo and losing my hair I feel like I've become a semi-hermit. I go to the supermarket when I have to but I keep my eyes down and hope that I don't see anyone I know even though I spent a lot of money on a wig. I keep wondering whether people can tell it's a wig.

I don't think you should feel guitly about the way you feel. I think it's perfectly understandable and a lot of us I'm sure are feeling exactly the same way. I know I am. As Sam has said, just try and be nice to yourself.  I really feel for you, especially being so young. At 46 I thought I was "young" to be getting breast cancer but since reading many posts on this site I've realised there are many who are a lot younger. Good luck Jacinta. I hope you are feeling a bit better than you were in June. Janet.