Getting ready for chemo again

Thank Tanya for replying.  I havn't had an opportunity to talk to anyone with breast cancer before.  I am glad I am not the only one who likes to keep house.  Its very important to me.

My mother who is nearly 80 comes Monday to Friday 9.00 to 5.00 to sit with me after chemo for the first 2 weeks.  I get really stressed as I too find it difficult to have someone else do my chores (that I want to do myself) on a daily basis.  Especially my elderly mother, but she is a woman on a mission and there doesn't seem anything I can do to stop her.  I feel useless.

I tried to go to work but was incapable of walking up a flight of steps and they all felt sorry for me and could only come up with filing for me to do as they have employeed a woman to do my job full time till I am better.  Again I felt useless.

My girls are 12 and are sick of me being sick and that hurts more than anything.  I dont know what I can do to make it up to them or my husband.  Any suggestions on what I could do on my good days (besides doing my own housework)

I am trying not to be hard on myself but I hear so many stories of women coping, achieving and getting on with their lives during their treatment, Why can't I be one of them?

As of this morning there are only 2 more chemos to go, hopefully things will pick up.

Thankyou so much for listening.  I probably ramble on incoherently, but thats the way I think it.  I felt so isolated before, I feel better now.  Thanks