Finished chemo

I've seen you here before, I think when first diagnosed. Maybe a different name?? You seemed reluctant to let others in on your grief. I am lucky to be so supported, and I welcome friends and family assistance and general support. I found some friends and family didn't know how to react, so I tried to make it easier for them, by making the first move. People get so terrified of the cancer word. But this helped them see me as the same person, but with different needs. As this drags on for me (almost 12 months) life goes on for everyone else, and of course it should. But I cant help feeling alone and left behind sometimes. Right now I'm recovering from a huge surgery and at week 5 am still dealing with infections and bleeds and a medical team that for my peace of mind (and body) are too distant. No amount of tuff talk and 'just getting on with it' will help me heal any faster. I just want to fast forward 6 months to a time when I am past all this. I just want to feel strong again. In the scheme of things I am a lucky one, despite that though, it's still hard sometimes, even with good support. Nice to chat to you Ivy, I hope you are doing well especially now you have let some loved ones in. Xxx Louie