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Jules74
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12 years ago

Finally feeling apprehensive

I've had a total "F*ck You Cancer!" Attitude since receiving my ILC diagnosis on Oct 28th. However, tendrils of fear have begun their slow creep. Tomorrow (Mon Nov 25th) I have my post surgical follow up appt to find out EVERYTHING; pathology, results of CT Scans, PET Scans etc. I thought they could tell me just about anything; I.e. - the worst news involving metastasis but now I'm not so sure what my reaction will be. The fact that the BEST news I receive tomorrow will be "only" removal of your left breast, full axillary clearance & systemic treatment is required is actually kinda fucked up if I view it from the perspective of someone without a cancer diagnosis. Oh well, just let it go Julie; can't control this one, nothing to do but hold on tight & enjoy the ride....

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  • What a lovely person you are xx If you feel up to it given where you might be in your treatment program, I'd live a visit while in hospital, I'll let you know when I'm in. Call or text anytime: 0459025840. Jules :-)
  • What a lovely person you are xx If you feel up to it given where you might be in your treatment program, I'd live a visit while in hospital, I'll let you know when I'm in. Call or text anytime: 0459025840. Jules :-)
  • What a lovely person you are xx If you feel up to it given where you might be in your treatment program, I'd live a visit while in hospital, I'll let you know when I'm in. Call or text anytime: 0459025840. Jules :-)
  • honey I know. i know exactly where you are coming from. I had lumpectomy and sentinel node biospy. got my results had radical mastectomy and total axillary clearance 2 days later. Its bloody scary and it happens so fast, but looking back over the past few weeks, Im glad it happened that quick because it gave me no time to think about it too much. 

    You can get through this too. I know you can. We will be with you every step. I can even come visit you in hospital if you feel up to it.  IT will be ok. Just think it will all be over by christmas and you can have your plan in place and move onto the next step in your treatment plan.

    just look at your little boys beautiful face every time you get scared. thats what I do and i then gather my next wind xxx

    Im here if you want to scream, vent, cry or laugh. my call is a second away.

     

    xxxxx Jodie

     

  • 'Oh I can so feel your anxiety.  There is truely nothing like the horror of the waiting.  I assume you'll have someone with you tomorrow.  I know I didn't hear anything after about 5 minutes so thankfully had my sister and husband were with me.  You're right that after a BC diagnosis you're idea of good news is pretty distorted. All of a sudden you can talk grade, size, nodes - stuff you didn't know anything about only weeks ago.  May the force be with you tomorrow, we're all thinking about you.

     

     

  • I'm so sorry to read about your BC diagnosis. Waiting for results is the hardest time of all - all the "what ifs" that flood your brain and stop any hope of rational thought. Having BC is a real roller-coaster ride - not one you would ever have willingly volunteered to take - and the emotional turmoil is truly frightening. The best thing you can do is express your fears and let those emotions out. Whatever the doctor tells you tomorrow, please remember that you have support from all the ladies here who are praying for a good prognosis and a great outcome for you. This is a safe place for you to say whatever you are feeling without fear of judgement and with the knowledge that all who visit these pages have walked part of your journey before you. Sending hugs, Xxx Jeanine
  • I'm so sorry to read about your BC diagnosis. Waiting for results is the hardest time of all - all the "what ifs" that flood your brain and stop any hope of rational thought. Having BC is a real roller-coaster ride - not one you would ever have willingly volunteered to take - and the emotional turmoil is truly frightening. The best thing you can do is express your fears and let those emotions out. Whatever the doctor tells you tomorrow, please remember that you have support from all the ladies here who are praying for a good prognosis and a great outcome for you. This is a safe place for you to say whatever you are feeling without fear of judgement and with the knowledge that all who visit these pages have walked part of your journey before you. Sending hugs, Xxx Jeanine