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Final Countdown 3 days to go for Mastectomy and Diep Flap reconstruction....YIKES!!!!!!
Hello My Fellow Courageous Beautiful Friends!!!! Well a few weeks ago I wasn't traveling very well, as we know too well that emotional roller coaster! I have since had an appointment with a Psychologist I saw 3 yrs ago and it was invaluable. It helped incredibly to try and put it all into perspective. She pointed out that our logical thinking comes from the frontal lobe but unfortunately my emotional body hasnt caught up to the logic of whats happening eventhough I know it has to happen because it makes sense. The other thing she pointed out is the attachment I have to my physicality and all my bits and pieces, of course am human this is what we are...but this is not the essence of who I am..I am so much more than that and the irony is when people see me they dont see my physicality they see the depths of the person I am. Somehow separating myself a little in that way has helped with letting go. The other thing was she said I was grieving, grieving the loss of my breast, grieving the struggle the past 6 years all very valid and is important. I feel I turned a corner. I finished work yesterday and the reality hit as I drove home in tears even at my age wishing my MUM was here to wipe them away...OH DEAR LOL So honestly?? I am incredibly nervous!!! and yeah scared of the whole thing, the pain of it, recovery...the end result...but am calm and trying to do one day at a time...just get to Monday and get to surgery thats all!!!! PHEW!!!
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- Hi good to hear things are starting to settle, sending you a hug xxxx
- Really feeling for you Mel....hopefully each day you'll feel some improvements xxxx
- Nikki im drug sensitive cant take opioids make me very ill. Thats why they couldn't get on top of my pain and why i have just panadol and nurofen. Ohhh good luck yes yr on your way to yours!
@"Soldier Crab" @iserbrown thank you yes being home will help alot! And lots of healing time. Xo - Oh Mel - being home in your own environment hopefully will provide a restful peaceful healing time! Wishing you a smooth recovery. Take care xx
- @melclarity Sending you healing energy and the peace that home offers compared to hospital. I pray that your healing is swifter now you are home and can get more rest.
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xox - So glad they said it was perfect Mel. Hopefully you're getting more rest now you're at home! I can't believe, though, that you're not on heavier pain meds: when I had my mastectomy, I was sent home with Endone, Celebrex (for inflammation I think), antibiotics and also encouraged to have Panadol every 6 hours.
i had a day procedure yesterday ( long story but a surprise out of the blue) and they even sent me home w Tramadol for pain.
btw, I'm starting my countdown to DIEP too - 28/3!!!! - Nikki it's is scary I have to go back in on Tuesday for a review, nobody is coming out and my drain came out day 2. Surgery wise they said it's perfect, though I feel like I've been in a horrific accident, it's just time. I'm determined so am hoping I heal quicker than I think I will. Xo
- Day 4? That's scary.....do you have someone who will visit you at home and review your progress?
- Hey Everyone! Thanks so much to all of you for your posts and support, it really is invaluable! I spoke too soon, things went backwards, they lost all sense with pain management lack of communication. My phosphate, bp and potassium were so low. I'm in a lot of pain and they sent me home day 4 barely able to walk. Nurofen and panadol is it. My tummy incision starts in the left side of my back near the kidney and goes all the way past the right hip. I can't focus on what the end result will be as I'm sure it will be good, but I know it's a very long road yet. Glad to be home as slept in a recliner for 3 days, day at a time. I will have a revision to match my boobs bout 6 months. Thanks again everyone this moment is by far the hardest so will focus to each day only. Hugs Melinda so
- Keep going, you will get there. Marg xxx
