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Final Countdown 3 days to go for Mastectomy and Diep Flap reconstruction....YIKES!!!!!!
Hello My Fellow Courageous Beautiful Friends!!!! Well a few weeks ago I wasn't traveling very well, as we know too well that emotional roller coaster! I have since had an appointment with a Psychologist I saw 3 yrs ago and it was invaluable. It helped incredibly to try and put it all into perspective. She pointed out that our logical thinking comes from the frontal lobe but unfortunately my emotional body hasnt caught up to the logic of whats happening eventhough I know it has to happen because it makes sense. The other thing she pointed out is the attachment I have to my physicality and all my bits and pieces, of course am human this is what we are...but this is not the essence of who I am..I am so much more than that and the irony is when people see me they dont see my physicality they see the depths of the person I am. Somehow separating myself a little in that way has helped with letting go. The other thing was she said I was grieving, grieving the loss of my breast, grieving the struggle the past 6 years all very valid and is important. I feel I turned a corner. I finished work yesterday and the reality hit as I drove home in tears even at my age wishing my MUM was here to wipe them away...OH DEAR LOL So honestly?? I am incredibly nervous!!! and yeah scared of the whole thing, the pain of it, recovery...the end result...but am calm and trying to do one day at a time...just get to Monday and get to surgery thats all!!!! PHEW!!!
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- Hi good to hear things are starting to settle, sending you a hug xxxx
- So great to read this.
Well done you!!
Paula x - @iserbrown @Kat09 @"Hopes and Dreams" Thanks!!!! I am feeling that way now yes, Im managing the pain better which is such a load off, still hard but can do it! sleeping a little longer in bed as well. Yes the hospital will become a memory, all of this will...feeling positive again that the finish line is in sight. Thanks so muc all of you!!!! your encouragement and support has been amazing!!! and so damn helpful!!! xo
- So glad that you seem to have turned the corner with your pain and movement Mel. You are always here for everyone on this forum and are just getting back what you give. Jane xx
- Hi Mel, so glad to hear that you are turning the corner and also that you made them accountable yesterday. that in itself has probably helped ease things for you. Take care x
- @nikkid wishing you well for your upcoming surgery. @melclarity hopefully this hospital experience will soon be behind you as you start to enjoy the result of surgery.
Take care both of you xx - Nikki i totally agree! I would have been $10000 out of pocket if i used my private health cover so my Surgeon said no point. Nursing Staff i actually found better go figure...food was disgusting! And Kath i agree more the Plastics Division than the public i feel too.
- Oh Mel, so wonderful to hear from you! You've been in my thoughts all the time. And fabulous that you think you might have turned the corner.
You go girl....we have to make the system accountable and you have done so with assertiveness and dignity. Well done! Meantime, when I go in for mine (private) we might be able to compare the 2 experiences and perhaps come up with more recommendations for both about what patient/client-centred care really looks like and feels like from the client's perspective!
Take care, heal, and sending lots of gentle hugs
Nikki xxxx - So glad you are feeling better, Mel. Hopefully the pain will lessen every day now and you will get some decent sleep. Telling the hospital staff how you felt was the right thing to do - they needed to hear it and now changes can be made. Big hug xx Michelle
- All the very best Mel thinking of you. All the preparation and build up, i know you will have plenty of time to heal rest and learn to be the new you refreshed and well. Much love on your journey. I sit here day 14 post op and know you are so brave as many of us are. xo
