Keep going @Siewli, you got this. You got through the first session. You will find the rhythm of the cycles. Please see a counsellor. It is so important to get help through this and it really does help. It's a long road and even after treatment you may need that counselling. There is alot to process with bc. It can be hard on family members too as they can feel helpless. We have all been there and none of us got through without that counselling support. You are doing well. Every bit helps. Keep going. Sending best wishes to you 💐