Feeling down :-(

I have been in hospital since Monday night after a day of feeling very nauseas and having diarrhoea and my usual anti nausea not working. After my brain met diagnosis in July , which was a real shock after 9 months of being stable, i had radiotherapy and lost my hair again and that really knocked my energy levels that I was starting to rebuild around, then I was put on Tykerb and Xeloda and was told this would be the way to go but to keep an eye out for hand foot syndrome and maybe some diarrhoea, well my hands and feet are fine but the nausea and diarrhoea are not...... The hospital have ceased the Xeloda which was one day short of finishing the first 2 week cycle so am now on week off anyway, I'm still taking Tykerb every morning. I'm so frustrated I just want to get onto what works and is going to control the brain mets, I see my oncologist on Tuesday to see how first cycle went so will have to try and work out how many tablets to try for 2nd cycle. I think was is pissing me off the most is that I was so lucky with my first lot of chemo Abraxaine which worked in 8 months to make me stable and I had no side effects that I was hoping I would be lucky again with lack of side effects, I guess the cancer decided to lull me into a false sense of security and stick it to me now!!!!! I have just been told by the doctors that I will be in here for the weekend so there goes any plans I had for my wonderful partner for Father's Day :-( Oh well that's my rant, kind of good to put it down, there are lots of positive fun things coming up for me in the next few weeks so I will keep my chin up, think positive thoughts and keep on fighting this bastard of a disease