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Dwakelin87's avatar
Dwakelin87
Member
14 years ago

Feel So Lost and Helpless :-(

Im sure someone can understand what i am feeling right now. I feel so upset and sick to my stomache today. Just having a really bad day.. I went to see my mum this morning to give her usual breakfast, and she was so un well, weak, her nose was bleeding and she was just upset.... When your mum looks at you and says " I dont deserve this" why is this happening?" .... It is really the most heart breaking thing.... She looks at me all the time, and she doesnt need to say anything i know how she feels i can see the sadness in her eyes.

 

I cried all the way to work whilst i was driving thinking about how UNFAIR this life is, and how crap breast cancer is. I hate it so so so so so much with a passion! I wouldnt ever wish it on my worst enemy. I wouldnt want anyone to go through what my mum is going through, and what me and my sister have to see my mum go through is so terrible.

 

Why does God put us in this awful position, put stress and heartbreak on people that dont deserve it. It just doesnt make sence!

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  • Julia44's avatar
    Julia44
    Member
    14 years ago

    Hi,

    My mum died of bowel cancer two years ago, she lasted only about three months after diagnosis-just refused treatment and never spoke to me again apart from emails....she lived in London and asked not to see me  and now I have breast cancer and it sucks.  My children either ignore me or say THEY are depressed and expect to be waited on.  I did go to a counsellor at the hospital but did not find her to be what I need , probably need to look further.   Your mum is lucky to have you and your sister and am sure she knows it.

    thinking of us all who go through this.

    Julia

  • danielle_ghilar's avatar
    danielle_ghilar
    Member
    14 years ago

    hey Danni, babe i feel so bad. I just read your blog and i had no idea that you felt this way and that things were so bad. I am so so sorry. It must be so hard for you. Do you have anyone to help you do all the running around? Have you spoken to a social worker. There are people that can do things to help you help your mum its called carers respite i think. I am worried about you. I wish i lived closer so i could help you out a little. Don't be afraid to ask for help its ok. Your mum has my number but my number is 0415635156. If you ever need a chat don't hesitate xxxxxxxx

  • Dwakelin87's avatar
    Dwakelin87
    Member
    14 years ago
    Thanks Jo..... I'm sorry to hear about your mum Life sure does suck sometimes