didn't think it could happen again!
I am new to this site. I have already been through this (cancer) all before, but didn't feel the need to share with people I didn't know. I had a friend who had gone through the experience, and s...
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So good to hear from you Mich, but not good to hear what you have been through!
To know that I have connected with someone else who went through something similar (although I was very lucky and they got clear margins), is a settling feeling if that's makes sense? I know being able to share with you and others is going to give me so much strength.
There is the ongoing worry of this horrible illness. How does one ever really relax and truly know it is finally at bay? Being between the scans and not knowing what else they may find.....I feel so helpless. There is just nothing at all that I can do about it. The fear factor for sure!
Yes - I am having a fairly bad day today. So incredibly tired and a bit fragile. Hard to deal with for sure when you are the type of person to want to feel in control! Have had so much love from people in my life, but also stuff I don't know how to deal with. My oldest son, who has recently shown more mature insight, ( he is 22 ) upset me greatly this weekend when he changed suddenly. I have had visitors everyday and he has withdrawn into himself and has become quite angry about the imposition of visitors. They are coming to spend time with me to show me their love and support and most times it does brighten my day and makes me feel better. It's going to keep happening too (until they all get so sick of it!..LOL), and trying to deal with his feelings is hard. I care about his emotional heath as he has been fighting Major Depression and Gross Anxiety Disorder and was really starting to get on top of it. This may tip him backwards? Any ideas how I should deal with this?
I will get through today as I will get through all the others days this journey will now throw at me - as so many others have gone through their journeys before me, and I will try to retain my sense of humour and have fun along the way. My ex-husband (who is still a good friend) told me I would be a much stronger woman at the other end. Not sure about that!
Thank you for being there to share and let me vent.
I appreciate you...
T. xx