Day 7 after 2nd chemo
Took me longer to come out of my dark haze this time round, one of my meds was halved which seemed to help. I had an out of body experience and hallucinations last round. Still the experience of bloating, nausea. This time i have had body aches and pains, spent more time in bed and less time doing house chores. Still the breathlessness ans sadly still very cranky and short tempered.
I have discovered a huge difference between being tired and fatigue WOW. There is also such a thing called 'cancer related fatigue. Not welcome to hang out on my journey.
Tears came flowing - not even sure why half the time. Well I can now tell myself tears are cleansing for the soul. I kept in touch reading the BCNA blogs and had to go for the tissues reading your stories and experiences. Just didnt have the energy to reply. But felt so connected to you all.
I seem to crave the foods my body needs - so i listen carefully now. Yesterday I had a baked potato with baked beans for lunch. (Prick the spud with a fork many times, wet and place in microwave for 3 minutes, remove put in a bowl and top with baked beans, place back in microwave for another 30 seconds just to warm the beans thru.) Tada! carbohydrates, protein and fibre.
I am hoping to join a local meditation group for cancer patients - first time tomorrow at 11am . Gives me plenty of time to get myself up and oragnised.