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cassboyle
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15 years ago

Chemo round 2 - a WHOLE different story

ok, so round 1 of chemo went 'relatively' well i thought.  i was pretty crook for about a week but bounced back and had 2 good weeks (i have chemo every 3 weeks).

round 2 however, ugh.  it's been a whole different experience, which from what i can gather is normal but i guess the emotional side of things is really starting to kick in.  day 1 of chemo was awful (there were tears!), and now that my head is all patchy, i'm pale, i'm thin, etc it's all really starting to hit home.  i'd be lying if i didnt say i'd had thoughts about just how tough this is going to be to get through ... i desperately need to remain positive, even though i look shocking!  i am actually somewhat positive, despite what i'm saying here, but i'd really love to hear from anyone who throughout their chemo had thoughts of 'ugh ... this is extremely, difficult!!'

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  • Leonie_Moore's avatar
    Leonie_Moore
    Member
    15 years ago

    I read everyone's comments on chemo.  This will be my first time with chemo.  I should start mid to late April after my 5 weeks of radiation (yes I am back to front)  I too am not so keen on this treatment but it will be my insurance policy as well.  The medical oncologist tells me that this will be my last chance to "get it".  Each comment I read gives me more strength.  Thanks girls - keep going - one more step closer to the end!!XLeonie

  • cassboyle's avatar
    cassboyle
    Member
    15 years ago

    Hi Chrissy ... i'm so sorry to hear about your friend.  I am also thinking of chemo as an insurance policy.  I've even managed (sometimes) to tell myself that chemo is a very good thing! 

    Your story is a reminder to me that there are many, many people out there who get a much worse prognosis than I have, so thank you for taking the time write. 

    I've got my fingers crossed for all of us xx

  • Christine_Denni's avatar
    Christine_Denni
    Member
    15 years ago

    Chemo sure is hard but I think of it as my insurance policy. Hopeing it will kill all the nasties and not let them come back ever.

    On Friday I had my 3rd round of FEC chemo. I cried all the way through it and burst into tears when I got home. I couldnt sleep that night. I thought it was odd and maybe hormonal or something. I found outlast night my workmate passed away Early saturday morning from rare form of lymphoma aggressive cancer. He was diagnosed a few days after me. On Friday he was in Pallative Care ward just around the corner from where I was having Chemo. I think I was picking up on his pain and last hours of his life. He is now an Angel sitting on my shoulder wastching over me.

    So this last round is very hard for me but I am fighting like you wouldnt beleive to get through this for myself and my whole family and friends who are also fighting with me.

    I wish you all the love and support in you fight. We are stronger then we think and will get through the other side to help the others going through the same as we have.

    Take care of yourself and rest. You deserve it!!!!!
    PS.Sorry for spillin gmy guts but I do feel better now its out there.

    Chrissy D xoxox :)

  • Christine_Denni's avatar
    Christine_Denni
    Member
    15 years ago

    Chemo sure is hard but I think of it as my insurance policy. Hopeing it will kill all the nasties and not let them come back ever.

    On Friday I had my 3rd round of FEC chemo. I cried all the way through it and burst into tears when I got home. I couldnt sleep that night. I thought it was odd and maybe hormonal or something. I found outlast night my workmate passed away Early saturday morning from rare form of lymphoma aggressive cancer. He was diagnosed a few days after me. On Friday he was in Pallative Care ward just around the corner from where I was having Chemo. I think I was picking up on his pain and last hours of his life. He is now an Angel sitting on my shoulder wastching over me.

    So this last round is very hard for me but I am fighting like you wouldnt beleive to get through this for myself and my whole family and friends who are also fighting with me.

    I wish you all the love and support in you fight. We are stronger then we think and will get through the other side to help the others going through the same as we have.

    Take care of yourself and rest. You deserve it!!!!!
    PS.Sorry for spillin gmy guts but I do feel better now its out there.

    Chrissy D xoxox :)

  • Tanya's avatar
    Tanya
    Member
    15 years ago

    Is it extremely difficult and glad that you can come here and get it off your chest.  I too used to look in the mirror and not recognise that person looking back at me, bald, puffy and sad, glassy eyes.  I used to feel sorry for my husband having to look at the women that he married not looking anything like the women here today.  Sorry for him, sorry for me, angry that this BS disease had taken so much from me, for us.

    But here I am three years later, yest chemo is hard but you will get through it and life waiting on the other side of all this is wonderful and better than you can even imagine.

    hang in there hon, it will be over soon.

     

    Love Tanya

  • Tanya's avatar
    Tanya
    Member
    15 years ago

    Is it extremely difficult and glad that you can come here and get it off your chest.  I too used to look in the mirror and not recognise that person looking back at me, bald, puffy and sad, glassy eyes.  I used to feel sorry for my husband having to look at the women that he married not looking anything like the women here today.  Sorry for him, sorry for me, angry that this BS disease had taken so much from me, for us.

    But here I am three years later, yest chemo is hard but you will get through it and life waiting on the other side of all this is wonderful and better than you can even imagine.

    hang in there hon, it will be over soon.

     

    Love Tanya