Aaaau dear Nadi, so sorry that you are struggling. It is so hard to be in the midst of if all and life just doesn't stand still for us.
I had a $3000 claw back on my salary last month for unpaid sick leave because I don't have leave anymore. Then got a cold this week and had to be in bed 2 days (so anticipating another claw back for those two days)
I hope things with your health improve soon, I feel so sorry for you feeling so unwell. Hang in there tiger, you are doing everything you can to look after yourself. And no more of this 'feeling like a bad daughter" nonsense..anyone would understand that you are not well enough to be looking after anyone. You need to focus on YOU and getting better first.
Huggles x