@"Holly Prevails" Thank you for sharing your story with me. I thought it beautifully illustrates what a healer the passing of time is. I will be saying a deliberate goodbye, I feel that much of this week is just that, but I will put aside a specofic moment. As I said above it's all very complex of course. We bring our past experiences, neuroses, self-esteem, body image, femininity & sexuality to this event and I just can't anticipate how I'll react. I do feel like I've done everything I can to prepare, and have put support in place. This forum is part of that. Thank you. I hope your healing continues. K xox