@kmakm. I understand your surgery anxiety - I think this process can cause that in us. I didn’t have a hospital phobia but after 3 breast surgeries in a month and a half I am now starting to develop one and I used to have a needle phobia but stert d donating blood and plasma after my father in law died on cancer and for over it - I noticed during my last chemo it is starting to come back after presumably getting sick so may times. The mind is a funny thing. Glad u had a fab night and conversation that didn’t center around cancer. I was weird yesterday too - had a beer and a hamburger and I don’t eat meat. Since the tastebuds die and food becomes less pleasure I have decided if something appeals to me I’m gonna have it!! xoxoxo