@Zoffiel I have a love/hate relationship with that trolley ride. It's an awful and coldly thrilling ride into the unknown. Good because the operation is finally about to happen, but petrifying because, well, the operation is finally about to happen...
I am trying to do the best I can and I expect I'll tough it out with a few more tears shed along the way. I have to keep a brave face on for all the kids. It's great for me to come on here and let it all hang out with people who understand the full gamut of emotions.
Hope you're not too sore from your exertions today. You're one tough chick and I admire you greatly.