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KazzieP
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14 years ago

At the very beginning...

I'm here, putting this out there not knowing whats ahead, trying hard to get my head around the unknown. Results of Wide local excision and sentinel node biopsy is this Friday. Trying hard to not think about it as I know that from there my plan of management will come - not wanting it to happen but feeling like I'm being sucked into a vortex against my will.

Not sure blogging is my thing either - not much for talking about it but as it doesnt stop - the relentless swirling of thoughts in my head - just putting it out there... 

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  • KazzieP's avatar
    KazzieP
    Member
    14 years ago
    Thank you for the advice. I think I'm still processing things and have a fair bit of the 'why me' in me still - but I know me too, and I will get there, it's just taking a bit. I will get my head around how I'm to do this. There are so many positive and great ideas and feelings put up here it actually makes you feel like you can get through it too. Karen
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    Leonie_Moore
    Member
    14 years ago

    When I started to read your blog my first thought was to enter the blog and see if Tonya had responded.  I was right.  Tonya has given you some great advice.  Most of us busy, industrious women like to have full control.  When I was first diagnosed back in 2006 I thought "Now that's one way to slow me down - did Dad (RIP) do this?"  This journey sure turns us around - sometimes it feels many times.  Best advice I got was One day at a time and also Just go with the flow.  Unfortunatley "What is - Is" so until you are able to make decisions about your treatment why not try and do some of the things that you love doing - lots of fun things are good.  Friday will come and it will go but you will still be YOU - just a little bit more informed.  Please keep on blogging - I found it so therapeutic when I was having treatment.  XLeonie

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    Leonie_Moore
    Member
    14 years ago

    When I started to read your blog my first thought was to enter the blog and see if Tonya had responded.  I was right.  Tonya has given you some great advice.  Most of us busy, industrious women like to have full control.  When I was first diagnosed back in 2006 I thought "Now that's one way to slow me down - did Dad (RIP) do this?"  This journey sure turns us around - sometimes it feels many times.  Best advice I got was One day at a time and also Just go with the flow.  Unfortunatley "What is - Is" so until you are able to make decisions about your treatment why not try and do some of the things that you love doing - lots of fun things are good.  Friday will come and it will go but you will still be YOU - just a little bit more informed.  Please keep on blogging - I found it so therapeutic when I was having treatment.  XLeonie

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    KazzieP
    Member
    14 years ago
    Thanks Tonya. Trying to keep busy and I guess when I think about it the course is set I just don't know it yet! For someone who runs two businesses and is always very much in control it is very hard to not be. To have your decisions taken away from you by default. I'm sure I will have some questions to put out there after Friday. I'll let you know how I go Karen