When I started to read your blog my first thought was to enter the blog and see if Tonya had responded. I was right. Tonya has given you some great advice. Most of us busy, industrious women like to have full control. When I was first diagnosed back in 2006 I thought "Now that's one way to slow me down - did Dad (RIP) do this?" This journey sure turns us around - sometimes it feels many times. Best advice I got was One day at a time and also Just go with the flow. Unfortunatley "What is - Is" so until you are able to make decisions about your treatment why not try and do some of the things that you love doing - lots of fun things are good. Friday will come and it will go but you will still be YOU - just a little bit more informed. Please keep on blogging - I found it so therapeutic when I was having treatment. XLeonie