Angry hairy fight contd
So it s been pretty horrible.
On top of that i had a reaction during chemo which my husband kept dismissing as me being anxious which made me want to throttle him and led to some debate whether there was a reaction or not. Thankfully nurses with common sense and a well cool oncologist prevailed. I ended up abit short of breath and bright pink for the next couple of days but much better now.
My hairy angry fight has got alittle more positive today. I received my new hair last thing on sat. I could only describe it as a cross between cher and the little mermaid. Don t get me wrong the colour the curls are cool but there s so bloody much.
Back to avoiding people and not going out after doing the million paws walk. At which i was knocked over by a lycra clad @@@@ who refused to get off his bicycle even though there were signs everywhere banning them for the morning...instead wobbling then ploughing into me , falling off his bike and then ranting. Twat!
Anyhoo fast forward another day of sore belly and i finally plucked up the courage to see my wee hairdresser who has worked a minor miracle on the rug so i might venture back to uni on thursday..yey!!
In summary.it s feckn tough. I hate this disease. I m not an overly positive person.but i m bloody tough. I ve 2 young kids i want to see grow up, so it s just buckle down and get on with it.
Am I re evaluating my life? Honestly, no. I think because if I start it might not end well. Am I acting different...nope. do i have a new perspective on things... not really.
What I have learnt so far is, I don t like looking sick.I believe firmly in mind over matter. I am going to win this hairy fight because I intend to be a lawyer, helping people in a similar to how I worked in nursing and I want to secure a good future for my family. I cannot afford to be sick.
I am not a great role model. I make bad choices, i swear far too much and I hold a grudge..definitely. but what I can say to anyone who has the misfortune to stumble upon my incoherent ranting...is that I believe in you. I believe you will make the right choice and you will emerge stronger.
