Hi there sounds like you are struggling a bit with the expanders, and it doesn't help with the bloody menopause either you poor bugger, I know you don't like the pain killers, but maybe just try something one night to see how you feel might be better to get a good nights rest do you think?? and have a fiddle around with some pillows to see if you can get more comfortable like Kath has suggested, it sounds like a military operation but might be worth it to get you comfortable. I'm on the waiting list at the royal Brisbane for my reconstruction, but the wait is 2 1/2 years, can I ask where you had your surgery and how long you've been waiting if you've gone through the public system?? Was thinking of contacting the new sunny coast uni hospital to see if they do it. Margie x