Hi Primek
Thank you for all your kind advice I like to hear from you as you have the same cancer as me.. I saw my oncologist today and she is very concerned about my tumor markers tripling in 8 weeks. I had hoped it was the cold I had the first blood test however they are raised again. I am totally freaking out and stressed out of my mind with what if s. She scared me senseless saying it can go to the brain and maybe my nausea is a symptom . I feel doomed and frightfully petrified this is totally sending me to the depths of despair and I cant shake off the doomed feeling at all. I cry get a bad headache and so on . I am petrified actually. I feel I want other women to talk to that like yourself have had this treatment just to feel comforted really by knowing they are feeling feelings like me and totally understand. I know when I ask questions my oncologist is honest so I do appreciate it however knowing what I could be facing is horrifying. I have never questioned my decision not to have the standard of care since my surgery 20 weeks ago and now if I am to have to consider having it because it is not gone from my body and perhaps spread then I know for a fact is it intense fear that is making me consider it.. I do not think I could feel that chemo toxin flow through my veins, I dont like to take a panadol I am so ridiculous about what I put in my body. I have low white blood cells and auto immune disease and I am only 47 kilos I think the chemo and treatment will kill me if I do it.. I guess it hasnt done much for me being a health fanatic here I am with an aggressive cancer. Please tell me about the chemo and herceptin and what sort of life I can expect if I do this treatment.
I would appreciate it greatly.
