@kabash We all have to do what we need to get through BC, so please don't apologise for length of post, or seeing more than one or two doctors! Whatever helps is entirely necessary. You do you.
I too get attacks of the green monster from time to time. People who have an easier time of it, who look like they've got the answers, people who are happy in survivorship. It's very human and it always passes. The best antidote is to count your blessings, do some gratitude. Be kind and gentle to you! Being human is difficult, cut yourself some slack. You're a human going through a cancer diagnosis... it's bloody tough.
Biggest of hugs, K xox
