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Pinkkittykat
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9 years ago

AC Chemo - 1st round - feeling crap

well what can I say, it's nearly 1am and feeling like crap, fell asleep on the lounge for only an hour, woke up and I can't really describe the feeling but basically just horrible, feel bloated, feel nauseated, taste metallic, felt burning sensation in urine (?) but didn't last, oh god how long will this last for? I have read and spoken to so many women about their experiences, at the end of the day we all go through experience of chemo all differently, yes I know AC is a hard hitting drug and yes I am having a "why me" cry but far out this is awful. Everyone is asleep so I don't want to wake up someone, instead I would like someone to wake themselves and come out to me to see how I am doing ... Hey hubby you've been asleep since 9pm! Hmmm won't happen and now too scared to go back to sleep! 

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  • Pinkkittykat's avatar
    Pinkkittykat
    Member
    9 years ago

    Hi everyone

    thanks for your supportive messages, no one can prepare you for chemo it's an individual experience, yep it's crap, some days/hours are better than others but slow progress - until next time! 

    cheers Sophie 

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    Andij
    Member
    9 years ago

    It is crap, of that there is absolutely no doubt and many of us want to give up at times, but amazingly before you know it you have had your last treatment and have come out the other side. Just try and hang in there.. It will end.  Just try and take it one day at a time, one moment at a time even.  Drink heaps of water is one thing I learned made a difference and move as much as you can even if it is just a walk the length of your house.. Hang in there, because this too will definitely pass. xxx

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    Karenhappyquilt
    Member
    9 years ago

    Chemo is horrible, at least some days are, some, surprisingly, are not so bad.  It ends eventually.  You are stronger than you realise.  You will make it through.  You won't enjoy most of it.  It's worth it.   After a few rounds you get a bit used to it.  I think the first is the hardest because you haven't done it before, at least it was for me.  Counselling can help, just to be able to talk about it to someone who won't get upset so you don't have to be brave.  Families want to help but are new to this too.  I once said to my adult daughter, chemo is harder than it looks and she said it looks pretty hard.  It made me realise how they can see our suffering.  

     

    Also, take every bit of medication you are offered.  Make sure you tell your oncologist you are suffering.  Don't be so brave you dont get medicated enough.

     Good luck, coming out the end in a few months will be good.  Karen

  • Ne's avatar
    Ne
    Member
    9 years ago

    Aaaauw Pinkkittykat, I can totally relate to what you are describing.  I know nothing I or anyone else say can make things better but hopefully knowing that this won't last forever will.  One day at a time, don't focus on the whole lot of treatment time left.  Rather, break it down to that 1 crap week say out of 3 and then breaking it down further.. e.g. 3 really crap days out of 5...

    It helped me a little but I know very well how badly I struggled when I was slap bang in the middle of a wrotten day of treatment.  I spent most of mine in hospital and remember just not coping well with the idea of this going on and on and not coming to an end. 

    I can assure you, IT DOES END!  I am out on the other side and looking back can't believe how quickly it went.  Hang in there, we are here for you sister.  Chin up, you've got this!