AC #4
I did it! I made it through the hell of four rounds of AC!!! Yeyeyey!!! I understand not everyone has a tough time with it but that has not been my experience. This round in particular! Seems my body wasn't quite ready to go another round so there was vomiting and all sorts of fun and games at my place this past couple of weeks.
I'm feeling a bit better now. More like myself again. It's amazing how every round lasted a little longer than the prev in terms of that alien feeling. I marked day 7 as the turn around day on the first cycle. That was the first day I was able to look outside the window without feeling sick and able to appreciate the beauty of the world again without something interrupting that thought process. Day 7 shifted over the past few cycles and this time around it was at around day 9.
I'm at day 12 now and I'm feeling fatigued but mostly back to myself again. There are still the usual hang arounds... This has been the first time I've had mouth sores, sometimes it's hard to talk since they are mostly on my tongue. I'm bicarbonating the hell out of them and brushing regularly. My nails have turned black now over around 3/4 of the nail bed, bone pain is improving but it's my digestive system that really is the big mess.... I'm hoping that will improve over time. I've moved meal times so that I am eating waaayyyy before bedtime to try stop the reflux and I'm doing my best to get lots of fresh fruit, veg and fibre into me to try get back to normal but, it's just going to take as long as it takes I suppose. In the meantime, just not leaving the house unless there is a good reason and lots of toilets nearby.
But it's safe to say now that I have made it through the worst part and that's a beautiful thing :-)
So.... 12 rounds of paclitaxel are up next. Everyone keeps warning me that the first few rounds are dicey, that it might feel like I'm being strangled or dying and not to panic... Which of course is just not helping the anxiety levels at all. Heres hoping that it goes super smoothly and I breeze through with no side effects this time or very little! I'm going to watch a super relaxing show, maybe try meditate and see if that works. Either way, it can't be as bad as the AC :-)
If I forget to say it - thank you to all of the beautiful people on here that have given me and so many others wonderful words of support when it's been needed. I'm really glad and so grateful you guys are here.
Jx
