Hi Paula please don't feel alone - believe it or not it's quiet normal to be anxious it's a wham bam journey I guess looking back I was the same waiting for those results etc. I've just finished 10 months of active treatment - and don't scare yourself we are all different. Aniexty has become my new evil friend but I'm here to say it does improve it takes a lot to process what's happened one day your a business woman mother next it's wham bam. Something that really helped me was the cancer council 131120 in the beginning I was given a phone buddy for I think 8 calls. I've since called the actual council 3 times and soon start with a local counsellor referred via them - it takes a lot to process diagnosis fears reborn - huge gentle cyber hugs - I've also met some lifetime friends via this network so come here to express yourself it really helps having others that have done this journey ( a journey I think none of us want or requested - there's no rhyme or reason xxx ).