Tracey,
I just loved your post, for your raw honesty and courage. I also know too, we can all so relate to every word you said. I totally agree with 'feeling lonely' eventhough there are people around you that love you to pieces. The thing is though in our journey we are so isolated to a degree as much as our friends and family sympathize they really dont and cannot understand the depths of it and so we have these incredibly sad moments. Remembering too that we are human and yes the tears come when we think we cannot cry anymore. Our worlds are turned inside out, what we physically go through is gruelling not to mention mentally and emotionally. So I say we've earned every little tear, so I feel it and sit with it and let it be..then I find Im able to wipe those tears away and stand back up again.
Big hugs to you, youre doing such an amazing job! xo Melinda