5 years on - need more tests!

So, today was my five-year checkup. I was looking forward to this as achieving a milestone but annoyingly the ultrasound showed a slight abnormality in the lymph nodes so I have to go back tomorrow for another test. The doctor basically said it would be fine as the lymph nodes often look abnormal after a mastectomy but the radiologist raised it and so we have to follow it up.

I don't think I am worried about it being cancer although it does remind me of when all the doctors said it would be fine before I had the biopsy surgery that revealed the cancer in the first place.

It's more just that today I wanted to be able to celebrate reaching 5 years and instead I have to go back to the hospital for more tests and just more faffing around, dragging the whole cancer thing out. I just wanted it to be over (I know it will actually never be over but it would have been one level of over).

I had the whole day off work today even though the hospital visit was just in the morning because I was slightly superstitious about only taking the morning off as that seemed to be assuming that it would all be ok. So, it is a bit dumb as I basically had this afternoon off because I was worried there might be something and now that there is something I feel like I should go to work because I have to have tomorrow morning off as well.

But I'm not going to work because I feel too stressed. I don't know what to do instead though.