Bring a Nurse helps you to get onto side effects quickly and deal with many issues without needing a Dr. I think the 1st thing to accept is you don't have control of this. Your life becomes a series of appointments and tests. You are at the mercy of others. Crying is fine. Feeling vulnerable is fine. Letting that part go actually decreases your stress a bit. But keeping informed and making appropriate decisions of your care is the best you can do. I undertook ACT-H chemo. Now just on the Herceptin part. It's a long road to this point but you will get there. Take care. Kath x