Hi @Siewli
Your heading definately resonates with me!
I was diagnosed with breast cancer in my left breast in August 2020 after I found a lump only 12 months from a previous mammogram.
The bad news was it was 5.5 cm but the good news was it turned out to be slow growing ( lobular , ER positive) and had not gone to my lymph nodes.
Because of the size of the tumour my breast cancer specialist got me to have a variety of scans including a PET scan and before each scan I was convinced this would be the one that showed I had stage 4 and was going to die soon.
It turned out I had stage 2 and after a double mastectomy and radiotherapy ( didn’t need chemo) I am on hormone tablets for 5 years.
My understanding is that less than 10 percent of breast cancer is stage 4 when diagnosed and the survival rate for breast cancer these days is very good but statistics are often no comfort when you are playing the waiting game and your mind is going to dark places.
All the best with your results and treatment - I found once I had a treatment plan I calmed down a lot.