Unsure how to feel since diagnosis in October 2019
Hi all
I guess I can say my journey began in October 2000, I was pregnant with my son and on the same day my family found out my Mum had breast cancer, sadly we lost her in April 2014. Ironically I was diagnosed with Breast Cancer on the same day she was some 19 years later. I had my annual ultrasound but knew in my own mind going into my appointment what the outcome was, and as I watched my scan (yep shouldn't have done that but my Mum was a registered nurse and I learnt to much from her I guess) I saw this massive shape and knew. I went to my GP the following day for the results, yep that day was a blur the words were Carcinoma, Cancer and I'm so sorry.....
To date all I know is that I have a massive lump in my left breast which has literally taken over 50% of my breast, and lucky me I have had one sneaky one get away and is in my lymph node. 2 weeks ago I am told one thing from my Dr following the MDT meeting, then last week told by another Dr following last weeks MDT meeting that my Bone Scan showed a "Bone Island" but just in case well send you for another scan this time a PET scan which was on Monday. Anyhow this Dr informs me rudely I might add, "If it's in your bone there's not a lot we can do for you, surgery would be a waste of time so well sign you off from the Specialist Dept and wait to see what oncology do. Needless to say I wanted to ask this Dr if he had any training on how to speak to patients as his manner is and was disgusting, but I just left my appointment feeling rather unsure and still am to be honest.
I have no idea as to what stage or grade my cancer is all I have been told is I have Ductal Carcinoma in Situ of intermediate nuclear grade. Yep no idea what all that means.....
And I don't see the Oncology Dept until next Thursday and I guess am feeling somewhat lost.
I am a number to 3 not so young humans my daughters are 26 & 16 my son is 18 and I have a 1 year old granddaughter so life I guess is not so great at the moment.
I have an appointment tomorrow with my GP to discuss how annoyed I am with the shit ass Dr and his manner of leaving me hanging I guess is the only way I can put it.
Any advise would be helpful xx
