hello Bowie, the waiting is so hard and we have no control over time. We've all been where you are and truly understand everything you are feeling. Cry if you need to cry, no-one will judge you, there is absolutely nothing wrong with having a melt down. Try to get some sleep tonight, there will be a lot going on tomorrow. You'll be in good hands, I know the thought of surgery is frightening but trust your team of specialists. I had a left mastectomy and immediate implant last August and once in theatre, I literally blinked and it was over.
Wishing you all the best for tomorrow, you will be taking all our thoughts with you. Jane xx