The wait is frustrating and worrying. And so many questions!

Had my oncology appointment this afternoon.  We talked about the gene testing, way too expensive for me, ridiculous actually!  Anyway, we decided to go ahead with chemo, only 4 cycles, starting Monday.  Now it feels like this shit is real!  Thought I was being super calm and positive after the initial shock.  Felt like my body was shutting down after leaving the appointment.  Wasn't a good idea to go get my bloods taken then, veins had gone into hiding...  :p
Time to kick this C in the arse!  B)